I always feel odd when I refer to myself as an artist. Has anyone figured out a way to do that without pretension? Now to be clear, I do it anyway. Because when in doubt there is one thing I for sure have in common with that class of dreamers: I look back at my early work and shudder.
Sure some pieces elicit a deep sympathy inside of me, not unlike the stumbling, uncertain attempts of a young babe taking their first steps. I place my hand over my heart and coo, "How precious!" But, no, for the most part I am aghast at what I once thought was good enough to upload. What was once the best my skills, talent and ingenuity could muster.
I don't know if everyone on YouTube secretly thinks themselves an auteur. But I know everyone had to create their first video, painstakingly edit the frames, select their custom thumbnail, hover
over the "publish" button and finally push it. Knowing it wasn't their best. Knowing it didn't capture the entirety of their vision. Knowing their message wouldn't...